Accepting The Diagnosis

Once I recieved the diagnosis It really took me a few more weeks to actually accept it.
I think because although I was at peace with my new journey, I still knew nothing about Down Syndrome, and what I did know was extremely outdated which I think is what scared me the most, all the unknown.
After speaking with a few friends, I began to slowly find connections with a community of T21 mums.
I was recommended to a small private group of mums, mostly pregnant or who have young children with T21.
At first I think I almost felt worried, I was unsure about this new community of people and their children and I was scared to find out what the future for my child could potentially be like. The best pieceof advice I was given was to take each day as it comes, dont look to far forward into the future, live in the moment and everything will be ok!
I introduced myself and recieved and overwhelming amount of support, these woman had been through the roller coaster of emotions that I had been through, they had felt what I was feeling, and there was not one bit of judgment, only experience, love and empathy. 
I seen pictures of their families, their beautiful children with T21 and at first I cried, not because I was sad, but because I soon began to feel excited and was shown how beautiful these children were. I began to learn about Down Syndrome and how these children were more like "normal" children than different.
At first I was scared about how my baby would look, would he look like a "down syndrome child?" But within an instant I fell in love with those beautiful almond shaped eyes, and their cute buttons noses, I came to the realization that my baby will not look like a "down syndrome child" but he will look like my baby! He will look like myself and his dad, with a hint of that little extra something special! And I couldnt wait! 
After all the difference between someone ordinary and someone extraordinary is that little bit "extra"

By the time I reached 20 weeks, I felt like I had grip of it all, I knew alot more about T21 and felt confident in sharing my Journey, I began to tell people about my sons diagnosis and educate them, and let me say it was the biggest weight off my shoulders, I felt a sense of relief, I was open and honest and felt so supported and loved by everyone in my life.
And I was so glad I could take people on this journey with me!
It wasnt untill about this time that I truly began to enjoy my pregnancy, the stress and concern, and wonder you feel when you go through something like this is unexplainable, but I soon felt a calm and could enjoy my little boy, begin to feel his movements, truly love him and couldn't wait to see what our future held!

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  1. Kylie5 May 2017 at 21:22

    So glad to have "met" you. Rest assured, we will be with you every step of the way!

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